Sunday, November 29, 2009

Happy 8 Months, Little Pumpkin!!

Happy 8 Months, Little Pumpkin!!
You are getting so big so fast. I am loving every step that you are taking towards making your own place in this world, your own nitch, exploring every part of it. I am right there with you as you experience each new aspect of this world...I love that you love every part, every piece, every bit of knowledge and exploration. Each step, each object, an adventure to explore, a challenge to overcome, a piece to absorb and take in. It is going by so fast, in the blink of an eye, and I can't help but want to slow the hands of time. Stalling these moments, holding them idle, absent from time.
I am torn between wanting to show you everything and holding it all still, so that I might not look back moments later, and they are gone, forever, now just a memory. I never knew that my heart was capable of so much love, of a love so worldly, surpassing all limits and boundries. I never knew that my heart could hold so much love, so deep a love...till you. I love you. Each day I spend in your absence, my heart breaks a little more. Each moment that I miss, I die a little inside. Aching to consume every moment possible. Forgive me for missing these precious moments that I will never, ever hold in my hands again, but will forever wonder about, and regret, in my heart. I love you. Happy 8th-Mommy XOXO

Thanks, Rach, for freezing these moments for me to treasure for the years to come...