Wednesday, November 4, 2009

In the Pink...





Except for Teeth.
Nikolina has been teething for quite a while now, and I have to say at times, it has me hanging on by a very thin thread. It's possible I am lacking in the patience department, it's also possible that I turn her agony on myself, and blame myself for not being able to relieve her pain, it's also possible that I'm dealing with a million other "Mom/wife/woman things and worries" at the same time. It could possibly be juggling a household, my desire to be perfect in an imperfect world, the manic need to have a clean household and find organization with no spare time to do it it in, holding a full-time job, caring for a chronically ill black labrador, and a husband who I love and adore, but have aptly named "the tornado" because where ever he lands things get thrown all over the place, holding on to a little pregnancy belly that I haven't the desire or the energy to try and do something about, and wanting to be the june cleaver/betty crocker homemaker, but feeling more like "mommy dearest" ('no more wire hangers!!'). I had Nikolina vaccinated for the H1N1 virus, and I am just praying that it is not having some kind of a negative effect on her. She is cutting three teeth simultaneously, so I am thinking that would be enough to make her a little challenging, but it takes anywhere from 1-3 hours for me to get her to sleep, she wakes up in the middle of the night, and it is very difficult for me to get her back to sleep in her own bed, and the Motrin doesn't seem to act as much of a deterrent for her pain. The only thing that seems to stabilize her is nursing, so I have been nursing her constantly, round the clock, as that is the only thing that seems to soothe her, and it is wearing on me. But compared to what worse things I could be dealing with, I am happy to say that this is only a small problem that in time, I am hoping, will pass.